Perfection With a Side of Caveat

I have a question for you.

What would happen if aiming to be perfect was ok? What would happen if you went into your day deciding that you wanted to be perfect? The conversations to be perfect. To be perfect not to mess up at work. To be perfect in the gym and hit the day’s numbers. Or the perfect focus for the day's work. What would happen? IF you do not understand a caveat then this will turn sour quickly.

That happened to me back when I was in college. My roommates all called me a robot because I would wake up at 6 am every single day without fail, even if I were out late partying. I’d wake up at the same time every morning, write my morning pages, and try to get into some work. I enjoyed that time, but I was completely unfeeling, and when something went wrong, which it inevitably would, I would throw a silent fit. Since then I’ve worked toward correcting it. Now I feel like I’m on the other side, but feel a bit too lax, and sometimes in my book, I’m a bit complacent toward things. So what would it look like in this perfect world of words?

Chase perfection while understanding the dichotomy that A: You can never be perfect; B: you are already perfect. Both must be in understanding while in pursuit of perfection.

Another thing to clarify with yourself is what is perfection to you? Because the next trap is chasing someone else’s ideal. Society's ideals will tell you every step you take is less perfect than the last. Mind the false sense of authority in these moments.

What if you chased an ideal every day, but could accept when it would not turn out like you thought it would? Recently, in experiment, I have been enjoying the way it feels. I’ve been more in tune with my movement, more intentional with the work that I’m doing, and more clear with myself on what it is that’s necessary and not. This time I don’t feel like a robot having learned many new skills that keep me from being as such.

It’s difficult to explain exactly what a decision toward perfection looks like, but I think an idea comes when I look back at the decisions I’m making between rest and not. Indecision in this case I feel is a part of this equation, I can’t seem to understand much more than that unfortunately, at this moment I’m only following a thought and feeling and the words don’t seem to fit quite well.

I’m curious what you think. I hope I may find more words. Maybe more source material is what I need, I’ll go looking some more, but thought it an interesting question I’d share with you.

I have nothing more to say at this current moment. Because of an increase in my work schedule at the restaurant, I’ve simply kept my head down and worked on drafts. I have plenty but none I’d like to share at this time as I believe they deserve a bit more of my time. But I would like to tell you what’s been on my mind a little bit in bullet points.

• Love

• The great divine; the isness; I am.

• TV vs. Movies

• Acting - Character Creation - How I might include it into my writing practice.

• Perfection

I hope I may be able to expand on a few of these topics in the coming weeks.

For those who have been enjoying my newsletters please share with those who you believe may truly enjoy them too. There’s no real way to explain my newsletters as I write how I feel, and sometimes write when I feel I must do so. But through the questions I ask I feel I find some answers, and hopefully, they help others reach answers too.

We’ll chat again next week.

Much love today and every day,

Matt Piper 🐅🌱