SPIRITUALITY
EDITION #4

Table of Contents

• I HAD A PROBLEM

• GUIDE POST 🪧

• WHAT I’M ADJUSTING

• MY CURIOSITY

SPIRITUALITY
I HAD A PROBLEM

A few months ago I was feeling incredibly static for a few weeks, and debilitatingly so. I was in this hole of unnecessary self-doubt and sabotage and recognized I needed help to set myself on a better path. While in NYC I met the sister of a friend who specialized and was certified in Kundalini Yoga, I remembered some of the work we did together and felt she might be someone I could seek guidance from, so we spoke.

We hopped on a call together and after a few chances to catch up, I got into it. I told her about all these different areas of my life I needed to fix and improve, and how all I wanted was to be something different than I already was. I was stuck in this limbo that felt was created by myself, but I just wanted to know how to fix myself and get out of my way. After what felt like an entire monologue, she stopped me to correct one minor, but exceptional detail in my language “Adjust, don’t fix.” There is no fix without the adjustment.

There’s a world telling us that we all have problems that need fixing, that’s a foundational principle to capitalism; create a service that fixes a problem. Businesses also know that most of the time people don’t even know what their problems are, so they are very willing to let you know about a problem you didn’t even know about (even if actually… it’s not a problem) and they’ll provide you with a service to fix it. Because they don’t offer you adjustments, they offer you a fix.

We gather all of this messaging in the form of advertisements, copywriting, and value propositions. We scroll through social media and are bombarded by the messaging that someone is better than us, therefore, we are less than, therefore, here’s a product or course to fix you. You look up from your screen and the situation that you were in that was absolutely ok a second ago is no longer alright because someone told you it’s not alright. Now to fix all the things.

My friend, my teacher, taught me these two things. One as a thought experiment, a contemplation, and one as a change of language.

1. What if this (all that is currently present) is all there is? What if there was simply no more?

2. Can we adjust something rather than to fix it?

There is no fix without the adjustment.

GUIDE POST 🪧
TO ADJUST AND TO ACCEPT

For those who are stuck feeling like they need to fix everything; change your language around how you speak to yourself and adjust rather than fix.

Ask these questions to guide yourself in a more fluid direction.

How can I adjust?

What’s one small way I could make a simple adjustment?

If you are coming up with way too many things for you to adjust and falling into a bit of a spiral, then ask…

What if this was it? What if this was all there is, and what if this was all I could do?

It’s a hard thought I’ll admit, but taking the time to ask yourself these questions will lead you in the right direction.

TRAINING
WHAT I’M ADJUSTING

My whole life has been about experimentation and adjustment, and then I get into those weird rabbit holes of FIXING things, which just as the all caps states, is always aggressive and weird and finite to a point where you beat yourself up when you don’t hit the objective. To fix carries a vision of something on the other side, something completely different than you. To fix is taking your square shape and shaving down the corners but it still not being enough to fit into this circle-shaped hole. The realization has to occur that, sure, maybe there’s some shape-changing that could occur - it’ll hurt - but the other thing you need to recognize is that maybe there’s a different hole that fits your shape better.

There are no perfect matches, so we have to adjust how we can, we have to experiment. One of the things that I am continuously working on is a social media presence. Let’s tag this post here

This article still applies right now. People keep talking about the necessity of social media and I still can’t wrap my head around it. Not after being so far removed for some time.

I recently hopped back onto X (Twitter) and I still struggle. There’s this huge barrier that I don’t necessarily see as bad, but it definitely stops me from posting. I just don’t have anything to say. Everything I want to say is right here, but I don’t want to participate in the noise that is social media.

It gets to a point where I can physically feel myself drained if I’m on social media or if I’ve posted to social media. I can sense way too much of myself leaving my body, as if I keep shoving myself into this very neat and very copywritey hole, when maybe, I just don’t fit that very well.

So my adjustment is this… What if I hired someone to do it for me? Just as a small test, what would that look like? I have an X scheduling program, I could just give them my account and have them read my long-form work to break that up to send to my followers. Maybe I don’t need to do all of this by myself, maybe I can in fact ask for help.

So that’s what I’m looking at doing, and maybe a touch earlier than expected, but I’d like to run this as a test, just to see and to see if it brings people to what it is that I’m writing.

Actors have teams that run media, meetings, contracts, finances, and more. Some actors have NO online presence, which I can appreciate, but as I’m coming to love my newsletter practice so much, I want to be an actor with a newsletter staying clairvoyant about the process, while everything else might be run for them.

On X I do enjoy showing up for spaces, I think those are fun conversations and far more enjoyable than just posting something. I just like talking to people. I like hearing voices, I like to have a call and response. I like it all to be in person too. That’s most important to me.

So I’m still adjusting, I think maybe I could adjust in another way, as in, if I have so much of a qualm what if I posted once a week? Just one small tiny tiny thread, it doesn’t even have to be good. Or posting a dumb post like

“hi” and that’s it. “how’s it going?”

Why not? I just don’t like checking my X profile for responses. I like to actually do things in life instead of waiting to be heard.

It’s a complete dilemma, truly there’s no right way here, so I suppose experimentation is important. I’ll keep you updated.

MY CURIOSITY
TO SHARE WHAT I’M CURIOUS OF

Note: that I have not read these books but aspire to. Personality Hacker does a deep dive of both of these books though through conversation in their podcast which is deeply informative.